She was lost.......
My friend that I am talking about was about to head down a road that I had lived and walked 10yrs ago. She had experienced the loss of a family member by someone else's hand. Having been down this road, I knew what she was going through and even though the pain was almost the same, it was not. I knew the thoughts that were going through her head, her heart and her Spirit. The hate, the pain, the hurt and the emotions were beating her down. The enemy was trying to take her out!
I wasn't going to let him!!!
It was 10 years ago that I lost my mother at the hands of another man while working at her job. She was killed along with 5 other people with only 1 survivor. That survivor lost his 15 year old son that day. Anyone that had a father, son or husband that day, was lost forever. Me and my sister lost our mother that day. My life was forever changed.
I went through something that I would never wish upon my worst enemy and lived to testify only to the Grace of God that I made it through. And instead of leaning on God, I put my family through hell, pain, anger and so much more. And even though I could ask for their forgiveness for the rest of my life, it will never take away the pain that I caused them. I have a relationship with my father and sister, but because of my actions, it's not the same anymore. God has restored a relationship with them, but I have done nothing to continue that healing.
So, knowing all of this, I was able to talk to this lady and minister to her the things of God. Now, when my mother died, the last thing I wanted to hear was anything about God. I was so mad at him, that I wanted to just walk away from Him. I thank God today that I didn't walk away from Him, but wished that I had His help in going through all of that. Instead, I leaned on my own understanding.
So began the path of destruction....
So as I am talking to this lady, she breaks down. She can't handle the emotions or anger anymore. She let's it all out. God was in our midst and He was about to reveal Himself to her through me. GOD is awesome in His Glory!!!
When she got done talking, I started telling her that there is a God that loves and would do anything for you. He actually did something for us a long time ago. He gave us a way to be healed. His Son, Jesus Christ was the healing. He provided this healing over 2000 years ago. The key to receiving God's healing touch, is not a choice that we all will come to easy, but brings a peace and a "love that surpasses all understanding." Just as God forgave us of our sins, we should forgive those who have sinned against us. His forgiveness brings healing to our soul. Jesus's Blood provided the healing..........
When I told her that forgiveness was key in her healing process, she just looked at me like I was crazy. I gave that same look to my Pastor when he told me the same thing. "There is no way that I could ever forgive him!" I wanted to put some thought into that action. I mean, most of us believe that "murder" is the worst sin out there today. But the truth is this, "sin is sin, none is greater or lesser than the other." That was a hard pill for me to swallow at the time and an even harder pill for her to swallow.
When Jesus went to the cross, He provided much more than the payment for our sins. He provided healing from the actions of sin. Whether you or someone else committed the sin, the healing has been provided. His Blood has provided that healing. The Blood of Jesus Christ is powerful. It's more powerful than any weapon on this planet today. Why? Because it destroys every weapon and attack of the enemy. I get chills just thinking about it.
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| There is Power in The Blood of Jesus Christ |
But, forgiveness is key to healing. My testimony has always been how God healed me and delivered me from depression. After I made the choice to forgive the man that killed my mother, I started to see a change in me about 3 to 6 months later. The thoughts of suicide and depression were slowly disappearing. Within a year, they were both gone. It didn't happen overnight, but it happened once I realized that I had to put "faith into action" by reading and studying the Word of God and then making that choice. That choice, forever changed my life.
The choice that she makes in this walk, will forever change her life. We prayed together over the situation and I gave her a hug. I gave her my number and told her to call me if she needed a shoulder to cry on or just someone to listen. She walked away for a little bit, only to turn around and run back into my arms. She said, "Buckwheat, you have helped me more than anyone else ever could." She continued to cry and just held onto me so tight, it was like she was holding onto God Himself.
Then it hit me. GOD is in me. JESUS is in me. The HOLY SPIRIT is in me. How amazing it is when we put ourselves aside and focus not on the situation or the feelings that we are going through. We are "lifting our eyes upon the Lord" who has given a way for healing.
Now, I can't make you forgive everyone that has hurt you. But I can tell you that in order for you to deal with the pain, the hurt, the loss and the anger, the best way is to love on God and let Him love on you. The best way to deal with all of these issues, is to make the choice to be forgiving.
We have been forgiven already. Forgiving someone else will be one of the greatest choices in your life.
Make that choice today...................
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